I am not okay…

…and that is perfectly okay.  I wanted to share with you all the ugly truth. As you might well imagine grieving sucks. Losing someone that you love is horrible. Losing the only person who was ever brave (or dumb 😜) enough to really take a chance on you…well, it feels insurmountable.  I have been doing … More I am not okay…

Happy Birthday

Here it is, the first “first” that I’ve truly dreaded. I’m not big on holidays, I’m not even much of a birthday person…but today is the first day that is solely about him. Today is Joshua’s birthday. He would be 34.  If I had known that his last birthday would be the last chance that … More Happy Birthday

Five months already?

These past five months have easily been simulateneously the fastest and slowest five months of my life. I can’t believe that so much (and yet so little) time has passed since we had our last conversation. Five months since I last saw your beautiful, blue eyes. Since I last heard your strong, albeit usually sad … More Five months already?