I’d like to make a PSA for myself and for at least a few other people out there who have suffered a significant loss: You can say the word dead. You can say the word died. You can say “I’d kill for _____ right now”. It’s okay. You can complain about how annoying your husband … More You can say the “d” word.
Who was I before? Have I ever known the person that I really am? Or has the person I thought I was always been hiding behind a multitude of masks? Throughout this “grief journey” my number one goal is to finally figure out exactly who I am. I know that I am no longer who … More Who am I now?
Have you ever been driving down the road, minding your own damn business when a memory sneaks in and hijacks your brain? And when that memory sneaks in, it kind of makes you laugh a little bit? And then suddenly you are chuckling to yourself? And then just as quickly, you find yourself sobbing? No? … More You gotta feel the feelings to live the life
When you become a widow, you suddenly start looking at life differently. Small things become big things and items you once treasured lose meaning. When I lost Joshua, I lost a lot of things. My security, my sense of purpose, my reason to get out of bed each morning. When I lost my husband, I … More When you become a widow…
Six months have passed since I lost the love of my life. Six months. Twenty-five weeks and 6 days. One-hundred eighty-one days. As of 8:41 PM tonight I have been a widow for 4,344 hours. It’s absolutely unbelievable that I have made it this long. Not a second passes that he is not on my … More Half a year later, I’m still here.
When you are one of the people “left behind” after a loved one passes away you are considered a survivor of that individual. I was recently referred to a group dedicated to family and friends of military members who have died (for whatever reason) who also refers to its members as survivors. It’s called the … More I’m a survivor?