How did I do that?

I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately about my life.  The other day a very strange thought crossed my mind.  I remembered the reality of my life in the months before my husband died. I remembered the stress, the unkind words, the overwhelming waves of fear and pain and sadness. I remembered never … More How did I do that?

The Final Goodbye

On this day one year ago, we said our final goodbyes to Joshua.  I don’t remember much about that day at all. I remember trying to eat a few bites now and again. I remember a lot of hugs and a lot of unbelievably sad faces. I remember a few people saying things I am … More The Final Goodbye

365 Days

One year. Twelve months. Fifty-two weeks. Three hundred sixty-five days.  That’s how long I’ve survived without you.  How is that even possible? Right now, in this moment, I feel like it is day one all over again. The pain is immense and raw.  I feel like I lost an entire year of my life. It … More 365 Days

A day to remember 

Two years ago today it was nearly 90 degrees outside, but we were determined to have an outdoor wedding. Determined to make all of our dreams come true.  And so we did.  Then one year later, we were at the most stressful point in our lives and our relationship. We were constantly on guard with … More A day to remember